my mind always goes blank when i reach this empty blogging space. hrmm i wonder why. my heads always full of things to write and then all of a sudden poof and they are gone! hahas.

came back from net. led worship! cranky voice, urk. haha went to jens place early to prepare worship and do abit of work. and really abit la. talked abt joshua 21 trip.

---btw its a missions hottrip! cool eh. something i've been dying to go for since dont know when. brio also has one trip every year and it sounds super good la esp cos its far away and we can make friends from literally every country in the world. and there are terrific services and projets and all. things like drama and serving at orphanages and alot of other really fantastic things. and so i am so eager to go but tts pratically impossible, considering the cost and time of the year.

anw back to joshua 21! haha it sounded really far-fetched and far far away. but now i am given the permission to go, and.. ahh! maybe its too surprising so it hasnt sunk in deep and good yet. hahas. i have two options, indonesia and phillipines. ok so thats another thing to think abt la, which country i would rather. jen said it would involve working with orphanages and i would guess evangelism and i bet, lots of fun! :) doesn't that get you all fired up. ---


audio: wow hits 2003
everythings gonna be alright Daddys gonna sing you a lullaby.

oh yes todays the last day of school. had hi lessons as per normal then had operation clean up. ok tt was rather sad. kay was repeating: its soo ironic how the mess makers are the ones who are not here to clean up their mess.

well yes i certainly agree! we swept up, cleaned the windows and cleared the cupboards. but tt was not exactly possible lar. haha till now the tables are scattered with worksheets, abandoned textbooks and well whatever rubbish. even clothes. hope our rooms not used for fridays O's.

todays net lesson was on the purity of God. i love hearing abt the topic. purity is soo precious. the first image i get when i hear the word mentioned is.. perfection. stark whiteness. holiness. cant find words to describe it but it is reaally important to me. and its something i live my days by. definitely makes me think of the perfect Almighty. and i am so in awe. :)

did i tell you abt our cip plans yet? afew of us are planning to participate in some canoe thing with cancer children. as in we'll be bringing them for some fun out on the sea. :) sounds great right. sincerely hope it'll come to pass next year. so we're also hoping that it can be approved and confirmed as soon as possible so we can take up canoeing courses this holidays already! i am soo excited and keen abt it. :D

wonder whether i will actually receive my rock climbing cert in its physical form soon. got it in theory since beginning of last year but havent gotten the chance to hold that flimsily laminated card certification in my hands as yet! some others have gotten theirs already. i wish i wish. it would come soon. 1-star! hehs.

i want to widen my vocabulary range! jurisprudence dilatory frenetic coup mollify superflous insipid dilettante facetious (making faces always?) impinge staid pejorative disparage stoic eclectic candor hackneyed. okay that is one in a million thrillion. some of jol's sat voab words. how frillatiously bombastic. ok there is no suh word as frillatiously. haha.

uhh okay should do chinese now.

oh btw you dont see me on msn anymore cos the newest version must be downloaded before i can use it. and if you just knew the speed of my cpu, you would not want to do such an atrocious thing.

the c's and v's of my new keyboard are not working well. have to press with all the strength i can muster almost seven times before the letters appear. driving me nuts or what.

think mgs girls just came back from obs today! haha bet they're pining for it even now. :)

ahh another day of aches and pains. ok its only 8plus in the morn but already its been suay. suay day. first i missed the bus. then i had a horrible tummyache when i thot i was so worried i was running late. and then. and then. something else horrible happened again la. but at least ii got to sch on tiimeee.

yar okay anw its break time

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haha trying to search for hillsongs audio clips to listen to now. lu lao shi is in the other classroom so well.. haha he's back!!

hmm feel like going for a haircut. quite out of shape alreadee. but i want to leave it long again! haha when i see those ppl with super long hair im like "waa". quite chio. funkeh.

ok i just found out yesterday that alot more ppl from r6 have got blogs and ods. hahaha. link here link there.

not a productive day. i enjoy the way the lessons are la, we're most of the time left on our own. but due to our lack of self discipline, sch turns out to be a waste of time. urk.

what happened at friendster? they claim you write testimonials of each other. uh? sounds funny. li asked me to add him. dont really care abt it tho.

mr ho is in class! just came in. hmm xin luan. hahaha!

ok i should go do something more useful than this. byee. :)

poof am i dead beat or what. hahs today was one of the most tiring days ive ever had in ages. played bball the whole morning- abt 11 7min games i think- then had trng in the afternoon. ok during chinese lesson i was pratically sleep-working! :)

hmm so today also marks the beginning of trng lyfe. it was not bad la. really happy that i was not left out during pratice la. like syah was with me thruout. cos well mich only came later. so i was relieved of tension for most of the afternoon. yea dear Lord pls let everything go smoothly from now on. dont really know what happened that wonderful day afew months back but i trust you can bring abt something along that course again! amen. :)

haha really love having the sec2s arnd. they can mingle with almost everyone in the team la. like they were close to the sec4s, are too to us, and now the sec1s! lucky for them to have the twos as seniors la. they do brighten up my day during trngs ok.

haha today was hilarious, teasing ru abt her Nod. heheh her service is extremely cutee! couldnt help laughing at that. wont that grow to be the legendary nod. :D

my legs have no more feeling. numb with fatigue. urk. will surely ache tmr! well well its is high time i try get back into shape anw. :)

the final trials for team selection will be up soon. first week of december. so during camp week must go work out sometime. :) haha can go with xiaopang since the gyms his fav facility.

he's trying to get his drum strokes and all right so that he can play in time for youth camp la. maybe i should practice on the keyboard more. hope we get our drum-set soon so i can pick it up! also when we go jamming. :)

miss them! my so-called jamming mates. haha, although we have not gone jamming together before. well we will sooner or later tho. :) really cant wait so i can start on drums. hrmm i really have no persistence in improving myself in one aspect huh. terrible. ;)

keyboard guit drums! yeah.

audio: not to us
let the heavens shake and split the sky

heys.

and yes, all of us do need that immense love the Father has in excedding amounts, waiting to pour them all out upon his dear loved ones.

lalala.

visited campus crusade again today! bought:

1. wow hits 2003
2. passion sacred revolution
3. devotions for teens by susie shellenberger
4. stories for the extreme teen's heart
5. do you think i am beautiful? [:D]

plus of course last fridaes cd too. spent over a hundred dollars on it all. but isnt it a joy having new things. :)

today was my most hardworking day for pt. haha. played badminton for half an hour at the expense of the strong wind. went for a five min jog. ok it felt like 4k but in reality it would be less than half a km. yes i am totally out of shape! haha. then brought pebble out for a short 10min walk. it would be the most tiring listed against my pre, present and post exam days. oomph how bad is tt. and trng starts.. tmr! screams.

btw, your eyes are captivating. ;) just something i had to say.

i really should go start on sec two work. ah God help me.

the earth is filled with your glory

guess what? -shrieks- im using my oh-so-brand-new lcd screen! wheeps. in the comfort of my own room sumore! hahas yayeee. ma sed they found this in her office so yea they brought it home just like that. hahas.

and actually my connection was working all along just that some wire plug thing was screwed. ahahas. well good use of kor's broadband tho. wonder if it can be transferred here since jol and i use the internet so often.

ok sorry i am being soo greedy.

thank you sooo much Lord for so much you've blessed me with! cant express how grateful i am, reaali. you have showered upon us blessings and prosperity in abundance. thank you thank you thank you.

hmm Lord i just pray you'll just continue to grant all of us peace and so much love in overflowing. some of us just do need it i guess? makes it hard to go abt doing things when we lack the generous and caring spirit of God.

i will be back.

mmmm yumm yumm. drinking this concoction of mine. try it! its reaaali yummy and healthy too! :) mix or blend fruit juice with plain natural yoghurt. mmm mm you wont regret. esp for me cos i love fuit juice and yoghurt. the perfect blend. wonder if i'll put on weight by the ton if i drink this everyday..

just came up frm a short game of badminton with my bro. en. urk its almost impossible to play cuz the wind was really strong. uh okay paiseh i was supposed to go for evening svc but well decided to stay put at home. hehs.

haha yea kel has the same blogskin as jol.

eeks everyones not updating much.

yest was the edgeeeooh. surprise surprise jl came to talk to me! hmm must yue him and joyce again soon yea? thks for your concerm anw its been a loong time. :D hees we were reminiscing the good old youth camp 2002 times last lonely night when it was only the three of us on board the big blue bus. pretty excited for the upcoming one. always enjoy youth camps cos like russ sed it truly is one of those times when we really draw near to God. yay. oh and yes we make friends!

thinking of ponning sch yet again tmr. getting pretty worried too abt The Os with a capital T. havent eactly started on much and its a mere two weeks away! eeeks. squeak.

oh yar went to campus crusade on friday for the supporters appreciation sale. bought a rebecca st james cd. so did mehs! wanting to go back tmr to get the wow worship ones. a real bargain. [pronounced "bahr-gen"] and wonders upon wonders trmg begins on tuesday so plan to go for a run tmr before he kilss us with the 4.5k run. somethings telling me it is impending. anw tts why i want to not go to sch. so i can go to hiap huat then study then run. hahas good listing of priorities.

not like tmrs a very productive day either tho. sec one ci yu kao cha and zhuo wen practice. then comes the principals address and briefing for interclass pe. booo.

i am sweaty. should go wash up now.

skipping dinner see where my yoghurt drink brings me.

you are amazing

la sheesh. in 304 classroom. no ones doing much la just talking and laughing arnd. playing guits too!

we just received this nice blue chinese book. the cover is reaali nice! title is [wo yao shang tian de na yi ye]. the main story would be xiao wang zi!

came across the mgsquashies homepage last night. boy, impressive. grieves me, haha. cant even find time to meet mr lui to discuss trng lor. urk. going to rj's open house. so how by the time we get there it'll be over! well well.

hurh ok nothing much to say. hope they bring me gifts of "myrth and gold" later frm kl. heees. :)

ah hah finally get to use the internet in the comfort of my (brothers) own room. with the oh-too-strong cold air blowing into my dry throat and nose with my lazy bro slumbering soundly.

haha ok i shall not declare my eoy results here. but they arent good la tts what i can say. :) but of course i still smile. :) chem and bio both lacked one mark to get to the next grade. like grr! how bothersome is that. and i begged the teachers but they outrightly turned me down. expected right. ok i didnt beg but urk the bio teacher (!) mean pok.

hrmm tmrs the first study-for-Os day. heard theres a cheng yu kao cha. ok actually im pretty sure of it but dont reaali think i'll go read thru them at all. but the first half pretty simple. and hope i can still recall frm studying for hcl la.

well Lord yes you have already given me memory capacity righto? :) yup you have so i will not worry abt a thing. :) :)

haha was rather surprised that so many ppl actually visit my blog. weiqi? haha i was shocked. hello! and anw thks everyone who signed my gbk and complimented my new darling template! haha its oh-so-obviously stolen tho. hees.

found a couple more new links! include lyn and pris and tetty and dee. :) heya. what a wide circle of blog friends.

ok shall go scout arnd more.

what a miracle. my com at home didnt show my links! make me panic only. haha yippeees. anw they are there on your right. :) ok this is not very nice cos of the blogger advertising tag thing hidden at the back. urk.

back in normal blogging mood. aint that great.

my little wise piece of advice: dont be so critical. when i talk to you you sound so.. bitter. hateful. haha i donno. chill enjoy everything you have. -hugs

had a goood weekend. packed with church activities and going online template-searching. quite fun la. :) what a slacker. havent cleared my exam stuff yet! all piled up in a one m high stack of books and papers. thing mosquitoes will breed. oh yea but theres no stagnant water hor. oops.

oh! ma pa and en going to kl today. urks me. haha was in a tight dilemma the whole week. deciding whether or not to go with them. ok im not la. cos checking marks tmr and wed. chi prac on thurs. okok i know i will regret not going with them. shopping trip!! urgghhh. what a bad clash of days.

todays the crappiest day. ora jogathon then bookmark making. haha. we brought our guits to play! :) yay.

ok la shall go abt continuing to modify my bloggg.

ciao miss ya.

what a miracle. my com at home didnt show my links! make me panic only. haha yippeees. anw they are there on your right. :) ok this is not very nice cos of the blogger advertising tag thing hidden at the back. urk.

back in normal blogging mood. aint that great.

my little wise piece of advice: dont be so critical. when i talk to you you sound so.. bitter. hateful. haha i donno. chill enjoy everything you have. -hugs

had a goood weekend. packed with church activities and going online template-searching. quite fun la. :) what a slacker. havent cleared my exam stuff yet! all piled up in a one m high stack of books and papers. thing mosquitoes will breed. oh yea but theres no stagnant water hor. oops.

oh! ma pa and en going to kl today. urks me. haha was in a tight dilemma the whole week. deciding whether or not to go with them. ok im not la. cos checking marks tmr and wed. chi prac on thurs. okok i know i will regret not going with them. shopping trip!! urgghhh. what a bad clash of days.

todays the crappiest day. ora jogathon then bookmark making. haha. we brought our guits to play! :) yay.

ok la shall go abt continuing to modify my bloggg.

ciao miss ya.

this is reaali screwed.

trying out my html skills. buahaha.

i am soo sick of my template. and blue. i promise you wont see blue anymore. ewwurgh.

yepp im finally on again.

sourcing for blog templates! having fun yet again. :) miss all this.

yup having postexam fun.vei kel and joyce came down to my place today. we baked cookies! hehx they are so yummmy. double chunk chocolate cookies. and i even make a cookie man! hahs he looks hilarious and faaaat.

was talking to shim abt our team and all. yea guess we do share the same sentiments. have gotta work hard to get my team in order again.

went for dinner on mon night at camden medical centre. ok at least one of the restaurants there. and boy did we have fun. :) we had whitebait and great food and wine! and then my lips are suffering badly now. booo.

mon aft was nice too. :) went to walk arnd with vei and kel. then went to sks to get books! spent so much time there just reading and yea. making music with the floor mat. hehs. love all the books sure to go back there soon.

electronics workshop tmr. sleeppy. totally didnt have the mood for tuition at all. tmrs gonna be another long day.

sorry you guys cant come to my place to cook anymore. not allowed. and grr my couzs arent coing down anymore.

i have the faith to believe that my three will be down. amen. :)

ok cheeeers to the end of eoy 2003.

yippeees.

sorry for the 'boldness'. muahahas.

hrmmpphhhh!!! argh. everyones got nice looking bloggies now! grr. haha cant stand it. not fair not fair. but well its just TWO more days. not-so-beautiful days. physics and emath. and then i can go scout for a nice template. too. :) been waiting to do tt since so long ago!

haha history ppl all studying now. their paper is in 20mins. i just realised my ss will NOT be good. my initially good subject. but think my ca marks will pull it up. oh amath was a disaster didnt i tell you? like helloo even the whizzes were tearing aft the paper. haha got a high A1 for amath ca! hoping it'll pull it up by loads. thank God for good ca marks. not like my geog. hmph.

okay anw enuff abt exams. i've got alimited time here. cant help it, miss being online.

eh. what do i say. this years exams will not be good. nevertheless Gods glory will shine.

cant wait for big bang. most likely combining with elvins! haha tts- unbelievable. beeeg turnout. great fun and food. pray pray cross fingers.

oh dear thnk God the deadline for yearbook submission is extended. or else i am in deep trouble. like no squash page for us this year. wad a boo-boo.

should go do physics soon. my ca marks for that will surely pull my marks down. deeestresss.

yao fa xie ya li. foreign expansion policy. 308 will be coming in soon.

i think i am stilll in trouble for year book. ok shall send the soft copy to my email. im beginning to talk to myself. pls dont bother reading on. wad a load of rubbissh.

lalieurhuibfivru klruthvfnwuide ieruhfui eurh jhhd

ciao.

boo! hellooo.

tuesday only. its geog and chi today. hrmm.

missed me?

next week again yars.

toodles.

take care God loves you! :D

MOOODLESSS. grr! my super long entry is gone. gone. gone.

he submitted himself to heat and cold and dryness. he was their creature, they did not fight against him as she did. the heat was like an enemy, she endured it easily, sustained by hope.

this was the beginning of the inner disintegration in her. irrevocably.

rude awakening. boo.

their are innumerable marriages when two people, twistted and wrong in their depths, are well mathced, making each other miserable in the way they need, in the way the pattern of their lives demands.

they were nasty and might do horrible things to her. he behaved as if he were an abstraction, not really there, a machine without a soul. she never thought of natives as people who had to eat or sleep. and when a white man by accident looks into the eyes of a native and sees the human being, his sense of guilt bla.

blahhhhh. save my combined humans.