on my knees*

i'll worship at Your throne, whisper my own love song. precious princess in God's royal courts.

Saturday, July 31, 2004

ETERNITY ; the ultimate expereience

it was a beyond-terrific experience! the very first day i started getting involved in the production was on friday night, at the theatre itself. i was marveled at the stage setup. and then the song lift up your eyes came into my head.

i see heaven before me

the stage was a picture of pure shimmering gold and stark whiteness. it was reeally beautiful. although the stairway and steps stood silent with no angels adorning it yet, the majesty of heaven hit me. this was just a simple attempt at simulating the entrance to heaven, but already it was awe-inspiring. stepping into the theatre and taking a glance at the stage kinda took my breath away, a very very good sign of what was to follow.

the basic construction of the stairway to heaven, a gentle ruffing of gold and white material, attached to the vertical plane of steps and the pulpit which held the Book of Life. plain, really, but bringing out the simple perfection of paradise.

taking my place on the steps during the performances became a routine affair after the first two nights. but during one scene when the charater was overwhelmed by the splendor of what he guessed was heaven, staring in disbelief at the astounding beauty that surrounded him, it dawned upon me that i would be found in that place one day. like, it would be a million times more perfect, a zillion times more grand than what the audience was witnessing. i would walk along streets of pure gold, beside crystal waters, my senses besieged by songs of adoring praise. the entire atmosphere would be intense, but with the glory of God.

Revelations offers some images from the place up there. the walls would be made from precious jewels, the city formed from gold as pure as glass. there would be no need for a sun or moon to shine on it, for the glory of God gives it light. the great street of the city would be of pure gold, like transparent glass. everything your eyes rest on would emit a brilliant radiance from within.

but best of all, it is the throne room of God. a rainbow resembling an emerald would enircle the throne, and from the throne would come flashes of lightning, rumblings and peals of thunder. Jesus would be seated at the right hand of the Father. and guess what! THE Father, King of this place of holiness, is OUR personal Father. ahah. Earth and sky flee from His presence, there is no place for them, and yet we are found right where He is. lets imagine the most sacred place there can ever be. the sweetest fragrance would exude from the great white throne, enveloping all that are within sight.

if we even need sleep, we would awaken to the heavenly chorus of worship from the heart, songs of thanksgivng and adoration. angels numbering thousands upon thousands, ten thousands times ten thousands would encircle the throne, fall on their knees and worship.

now, wouldnt that all be amazing.

angels passing around me

i was one of the many angels that paved the way to heaven. it was such a joy and so much great fun to skip into the make up room every night, grab my costume from the beam and start dressing up. :) on went the simple make up with the very very pretty shimmery eyeshadow, then the halo. then soon the room would start filling up with our little legion of angels.

heh we did the holy spirit boogey dance whenever a believer was allowed admittance into heaven, sending the audience into peals of laughter. and ahh the angels definitely accentuated the awesomeness of heaven.

it was real cool. whenever the two main angels gently picked up the newest to-be member of heaven, a new song sounded. more of a song of rejoicing.. then the lights brightened further, and the angels did the welome dance. during these times the glory of God just falls in the place. and heh we smile the brightest and most radiant smile ever. :D true joy, utter gladness. wonder what goes thru the hearts and minds of the audience. our prayer is, a yearning desire to encounter a similar experience.

haha and the finale night of the drama! stanley and i, the few of us came up with some funky retro dance steps. heh and so after the altar call was given, the same song, our cue to dance, was played. our plan was for us who knew the dance to step to the front to lead the others. and since it was the last night, the entire cast came on stage too. all of us were like really high and excited haha. so we danced together! haha it was so so so much fuun! ay too bad our wonderful director was busy selling dvds and tshirts so he missed out on our hokey pokey. :)

felt it an honour to be able to serve God in this little way. the late nights, total negligence of hw (nvm) and the such. i reaped many many rewards though, such as getting to know people better esp in the worship min, the personal extreme enjoyment and the daily powerful prayerful moments that filled me with the spirit.

here i stand in awe of your beauty

the beauty of God embodies the best qualities. beauty encasing ideal standards. basically God in all His wonder and perfection kept us in His hands.

He makes all things beautiful in His time. kind of describes the entire process of eternity. apparently our prep time including casting and rehearsals was one of the shortest the directors had ever given. Jr also said that each location usually has 3 directors. so to say it all, Jr was impressed by our performance. and of course, its ultimately God who allowed it all to fall in place!

(oh they're watching the video of our fifth night performance. :) its HILARIOUS. my father satan said walk the walk and talk the dog. bloop.)

looking back on the past week, its clear it was solely by God's grace that we managed to pull thru. see, it was every single night from wednesday to friday for the cast. how tiring! and because the drama depended most on expression, it was emotionally exhausting. still, the presence of God always saturated the auditorium, making everything turn out just as it should be. :)

God, its your enthralling beauty that draws men to Yourself. our weaknesses appear as strengths by Your power.

captured by Your holiness

of course, our main purpose in putting the drama up was to bring people into the kingdom. and boy did we. :) praise God for all the souls that were saved. 200 youth! more than a thousand people whose names were newly added to the Lamb's Book of Life?

hallelujah!

the hushed tones of the audience after each hell scene made me hopeful that fear truly gripped their hearts. honestly, the hell scenes must have been petrifying. how can anyone have the guts to NOT accept Jesus.

and on the other hand, i boldly say the holiness of heaven must have captured the hearts of many. the God of everlasting love peace and hope! who so willingly forgives. dont know abt you, but im caught by His holiness every single day.

be still and know He is God.

ah it was never for ourselves, but ALL for His glory.

GLORY BE TO JESUS!

Friday, July 16, 2004

i fairly conclude that all oral candidates think they screw up. haha isnt it so. all the moaning groaning and deep set regret for not saying what they could have. :) its very common; quite amusing really. and i am guilty of it too haha.

the past weeks have been rather hectic with so much stuff to do (esp rhd, urg) and the pile of surveys on my desk every morning arent doing much to help. the stresses of the last 4 months in school. gee its been three years and 7 months ive been a proud member of rg. :) the velocity of time relative to me is.. sky-high. official handover is just round the corner.

hey all you teammies sec four or otherwise- rgsquash is a biig part of me. as are all of you guys! chris ash syah mich, i've got you booked for an outing one of these days. gelares, newzealand icecream, whatotherjunkies. the 16 rides to kallang, sneaking macs icecream into kfc, sleepover at chris', the stupidest neos with big sunglasses covering our gleaming white teeth. the gossiping about seniors in sec2! haha. split icecream, ayam double deckers (collecting the stickers), cheering at the tennis court tables! the very-often undone court sprints and grumbles about zainal. walks to tanglin, taking all the time in the world to change. all the very very many things we ever did. :) they're etched in my mind!

and to the batch of comm 2005- you guys are the best. thanks for all the support. the whole zai lot of you who spilled over into our team. haha next year.. a shimmering gold trophy and the challenge trophy alright. reclaim our tradition! :)

sec2s you wacky lot- hold on to the tradition and keep bringing the challenge troph back to where it rightly belongs yea. :) and.. so many of you God-lovers. keep living out loud for Jesus yea. c'mon do sth to win your fellow team mates to Christ. :)

LOVE YOU ALL.

God loves you more.
<3
i adore you
all my days belong to you.

Wednesday, July 14, 2004

what is man that God is mindful of him? we're nothing, really. but God takes into serious consideration our fleeting thoughts, and what more He anticipates them even before WE know it. makes me feel so so loved and cared for. we couldnt ask for more!

got back amath mock marks today. didnt have any expectations really, but knew it was quite a disaster. surprisingly, i did well enough to scrape past a C. ok doesnt actually sound ideal but i still owe it all to God. :) would have done worse without. my ever present help in time of need!

please pray along for a cousin. things dont seem very on the up side for his condition but nonetheless this is a very good oppurtunity for his salvation. and the entire family's! this could be the prayerfully long-awaited time. dear God. may Your will be done.

countdown: 45 days

Sunday, July 04, 2004

haha just had karen and grace over. after this morning's ever-grandeur corporate service. they're the best! the dynamics and what not. :) and then hit lunch with the few of them. our esplanade group, haha. all except two of us had been for dinner together at thai express at colours by the bay before! :) then we had jean meet us. shall catch up with her some day soon. :)

got our bikes fixed so went on a little round abt our estate. it reminded me of our recce at pasir ris park two years ago! the camp games comm. :) darren joy eugene marcus jen jeremy. (sorry if i missed you out) so memorable! we went twice to check out the place, the first time around on bikes. and i rmb eugene scaring us and making us scream by ramming his bike into ours or making wild swerves into our paths. haha. and darren's maiden (i think) song my loving Saviour. :) but it was realllly fun altogether. and games that year was awesome! :) i miss that time ALOT.

hmm was just thinking abt my future the other day. it seems im one of the few who has no clue as to what they want to do. not even a slight inclination toward either arts or science. ask me abt my ambition in terms of career, i wouldnt have an answer. so hmm. vei was saying i would suit being like, a social worker or sth. haha perhaps. or maybe im lost cos my path has been drawn in a way i never would have imagined! or perhaps i dont especially prefer arts or science precisely because i wont be going into any of the associated fields. but still im confident i wont end up doing nothing purposeful. maybe i can do missions forever. haha. ah well shall leave that till later but for now shall have to pray about and start considering the subjects im gona take up in whichever institution i'll be proceeding to. :)

week of prayer and fasting! time to set aside time for God if we have not been. youth day tmr! haha all youth give a shout!

got a date with hung in awhile.