the holidays are finally here. ah well its not suuposed to be much of a break thanks to the early mocks but i will still take it easy. i always do, which explains the last minute extreme stress. :/

ok our presentation on proving the existence of God went pretty well. :) we were the very last group out of the 12 grps which presented over 4 lessons. so either everyone was tired by then or the presentation was clear enough or they didnt know what we were talking abt. haha it should veer more toward the latter. but thank God anw that ms lee said it was done well, with us picking out the most common arguments on the market and handling it maturely. (: hopefully it did provide some insights that swayed opinions. spent days and night searching for, chewing on and digesting the fibrous info. so im quite proud of it all! :)

yesterday was a really good workout, haha. we apparently did a walk-a-run over nearly 6km? but group you guys were really awesome! the effort put in got us a funky little bracelet. :) so, well done! it was really tiring but altogether pretty fun. (:

awfully sleepy now.

toodle`

was feeling soo fatigued the entire today. and the whole weekend. all the research paper stuff, nball carn and all. but i feel so at peace now. (: with God. with myself. surrendering everything into His safe Hands has that kind of effect. :)

its the last two days to end of sch semester but theres so so much to do! thank God for His strength and grace. still need to hang in there for a few more days. :/ oh to all you taking your chinese Os: all the best too! :) it shouldnt be much of a problem, just kinda look thru all the ci yus once and know their meaning. the rest doesnt need much studying. keeping you guys in prayer! dont burn out. (:

counting down the days, ticking off whats to be done.

God is God! He's in control. rest in His care.

bio test has unfortunately been postponed. so i cant study today. haHA. not really. just that i was supposed to be liberated by tmr. ah well. oh got my progress report for the semester. not very ideal but thank God for everything cos i know i havent exactly done my part. its obvious i wasnt the one who got me the results. :) all glory to God!

anw the weekend was good. too overused a word and it really isnt suitable here. so much more than just good, it was practically a turning point! spent a good 3 over hours talking to someone, reflecting on the way we were handling everything. i learnt more abt myself, things that werent so pleasant. :/ but im so so grateful for it. saw so many things in a whole new light. i kind of have been doing things as they've always been, never looking beyond the 'doing'. and i hadnt been seeking God in alot of things too. bad bad mistake.

working to change! while never losing sight of the ultimate Supreme.

im so appreciative of all my friends. :) thanks to all who never fail to encourage me. im so blessed i've got you guys!

lets live out loud for Jesus!

i just want to love you more and more

thank God for a non school day! :) got a red face now from the beating late morning sun. while kelly got nothing. haha. her swimming companion bum refused to do more than a few laps. (:

anw im so happy for this long weekend, got to do things i usually don't find time for. i actually begun writing in my journal. i quit journaling like a year ago. but i think this is quite a signifiant year and it'll be nice to remember. :)

sth impt which i learnt these few days. God desires for us to come before Him each time with a humble spirit. He takes delight in seeing us tear away our pride or facades of spirituality just so we can spend quality time with Him. sincere, honest and truthful. and it is true that it is solely in this way that He can reach us as we really are. i guess most of the time our talks with Him are only surface deep, no matter the quantity.

it says in Psalms that a "broken and contrite heart" God will not despise, but instead, they rise up to Him as a pleasing sarifice. what greater honour is there than to please our Heavenly Father? (: all He asks is that we put aside all that superficiality (im so guilty of that) and go to Him, open and willing.

i think i'd like to see God smile cos of me. its like presenting a bouquet of flowers to someone you love, and seeing a smile break out on her face. :) and you feel this sweet happiness too. thats how it should be. lifting up to God a sweet aroma of worship, something that truly pleases His heart.

got quite a nasty reminder today. it kind of shook me into perspective. bleag and yes its all about studies. its either been a rather hectic semester, or i just havent bothered much. im quite sure its more the latter. everythings so disorganised and my grades are definitely slipping. think its to do with an attitude i developed this year. had to come at the wrong year of my sec sch life! ah haha.

alright a commitment to change and start working hard. discipline and a very very strong will. plus total dependence on God. the ultimate Teacher and giver of all wisdom! :) knowing i have full access to Him calms my nerves, without fail.

so dont worry too much. it will all work out.

"do not be anxious about anything, but in everything, by prayer and petition, with thanksgiving, present your requests to God. and the peace of God, which transcends all understanding, will guard your hearts and your minds in Christ Jesus." Phil 4:6-7

alright. its been a really long past few months with so so many things going on and that could be the only reason why i blog-breaked for so long. (: im so relieved all the major events for this term are over. season's over, which is quite sad actually- miss it lots, major bout of tests are over and done with. thank God! will take a short break, then it'll be time to hit the books.

haha i've been to two buffets in a row this weekend. yest it was with my funky manila team at grand hyatt. think we all had a good time chatting casually and stuffing our faces. and reminscing that precious one week in philippines, along with all that its taught us. im pretty sure the prospects of us going again on any mission trip be it short or long term are high. :) our team leader is already under training to lead yet another team to houston!

and today was a family lunch at swissotel. i big time jeopardised my health by ignoring this naggy cough and flu and going full steam at the worst things to eat in my state of health. a-haha. suffering the consequences of it but. the spirit never dies. (:

i had a badminton date an hour ago with my brother but we took turns napping and so haha our plans are foiled. dont blame him though. he and jo stayed up till 2 plus 3 studying last night? my. they were slogging away and i was so snug under my blanket. the difference in willpower. xD

oh i was (and am) really glad for our sharing session on thurs. jeremy's sermon on the passion offering a hope worth living for really hit home and because it felt awful that i didnt bring friends, i thought it would be good to get the message across too. ok praise God that everyone shared, and from the heart. it was like everyone was being honest and really sincere about it. God meant to many a presence, a friend, a supporter, a blesser. and its so so true, God is so much, He's everything. hmm i think attendance this time was about 11. and not everyone was there. yes God please keep the group growing. full dependance on God this time. maybe i shouldnt be so turnout-centred, but more on what God can do for us. (: somehow this year has been different from the last. well its prolly this year being the last so all of us are changing our attitudes toward things. but am still grateful the class is still so supportive.

all passion series have ended this weekend. the hooha over the movie has died down but im so sure the impact is still full-blown. souls keep coming into the kingdom. as long as all of us hold on to God's vision. not forgetting the urgency and importance of keeping the eagerness intact. the same power that rose Jesus from the dead is in all of us. we have the same authority and can be proud in declaring that! :)

AND i think praying for others is a great way to show your faith. you know like, unsaved friends who are sick- just go up to them and ask if you could pray for them? its sth that i believe is really effective. of course we must be sincere and undoubting! :) and then live out a life that goes hand-in-hand with being someone who believes in the God who answers prayers.

sth i leave with you: "Therefore we do not lose heart. though outwardly we are wasting away, yet inwardly we are bring renewed day by day. for our light and momentary troubles are achieving for us an eternal glory that far outweighs them all." 2 cor 4:16-17

to all of you having your exams, strive to do your very best ok. nothing short of your best. for God's glory. (: and He'll guide you through.

be blessed!